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Quiet Bloom
03:52
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So still, quiet, and complacent
You wait for your change of pace to bloom
Well it’s taken lifetimes
To find the right time to speak out
Now you know not what to say
But you’re just a word away
It’s drowned out the comforting sound
A quarter life—a crisis of middle ground
And you can’t decide
How to choose a side when it gives out
And you know not how to up and go
But you know only the buried below can grow
It’s been such a long and weary ride
When suddenly, seasons start to slow from your bedside
‘Cause when the corners of your mattress start to curl
Better just get up, go, and face the world
And the plans you drew
They just need some follow-through
When you’ve nothing left to lose
Just leave and start anew
So still, quiet, and complacent
You wait for your change of pace to bloom
Well it’s taken lifetimes
To find the right time to speak out
Now you know just what to say
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2. |
Relight The Reel
06:25
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Wait
Is this the end of our last take?
A sudden seal upon our fate
We cut and print and check the gate
So I’ll stay
Just as long as you’re awake
Before you drift and I just fade
Into the background of your day
So let’s just drive around
Until the feelings fade
And cry both our eyes out
For that which we can’t change
(And throw both our backs out
With that which we can’t take)
(And scream both our lungs out
With that which we can’t change)
And watch the days replay
Before they burn away
So let’s just drive around
And wait
See
A long-awaited final scene
Like sinking ships slow to the sea
We played our parts out patiently
But I’m afraid
That I may never love that way
And even more that you just may
So I’ll just sit and roll the tape
As sure as the morning light will find
A leak in the lace between your blinds
All of the lines and scripted lies
Will flow through your window
Gleaming the dust under your glare
And grow in the middle
So dim in the dusk, I’ll hold you here
And in the rearview
I’ll remember you that way
Warm in autumn’s sun
Fragile and unafraid
To hushed and motionless
Forever safe in frame
So I’ll just drive around
Two-eighty-one until you meet Casey Road
Then turn left and stay strong
To find how far it can go
Credit roll
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3. |
’97 Crown
04:46
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Asleep outside
Back porch bottles broke and bone dry
Like your lazy eye
And the kitchen’s trashed
My phone is dead, they’re all piles of ash
So I guess I’ll crash
Two months in the cold
My Yankee blood ain’t enough to dull
So I down it whole
It’s like getting high
In a decommissioned cop car that you buy
On your parents’ dime
But how am I the one who’s sober and so over it?
A shopworn shitshow
Think it’s time I bow out with the curtain call
‘Cause I know it well—you won’t ever change
It’s as comforting as it’s strange now
So mourn me on the couch
Another decade gone
Like rug from under the same songs
That you’d dance ‘til dawn
Now sometimes when I drive
Between routines on Friday night
Oh—I miss the sight
But how am I the one who’s older and so over it?
A maudlin mess
Maybe it’s time I reach out with the colder call
But I know it good—it wouldn’t be the same
It’s as sickening as it’s strange now
So mourn me on the couch
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Driving through the streets of your neighborhood
With the windows rolled down
I swear I almost could see you in the passenger
Feet upon the dash
And humming along to “Came Out Swinging”
But my eyes deceive when I’m all alone
And as I pass the patterned steps to your home
This goddamn place could burn down
‘Cause I swear since you left
This town got a little smaller
Those worn-out places
Suburban breeding grounds
I’m such an orphan
A slave to this damn abandoned town
So doll up all those homesick thoughts
You needn’t waste a night
While I’m at home—just sick
And much too tired to fight
I’m clearing off a table set for one
And lying to myself
About the things I think need done
Like change my sheets
And rearrange those books unread
‘Cause I swear since you left
My bed got a little colder
So with a warm beer and ten-cent cigar
I’ll make the best of tonight
Swapping story after story with friends of friends
Pretending to take interest when they speak
But no one cares how drunk you got last week
So I’ll try not to move
‘Cause I swear
Since you left your things over at my place
I can’t stop dreaming up your ghost
With bedhead and blue jeans
And if you find someday
That our paths reintertwine
No—I won’t be afraid
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5. |
Kenopsia
05:38
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“Do you still love anything at all
Like you did as a kid?”
She asked and I shrugged it off
I can’t find where everything went wrong
Just a gradual defeat, I guess
A subtle freefall
And now I am not afraid to speak my truth
In that I have grown afraid of what I’ll lose
Now I’m feeling lost and left behind
And I can’t seem to clear my mind
Can’t seem to catch my breath
But still I try
Day by day, I’m getting by
This routine is just running dry
And I’m running out of time
The phone calls get fewer year after year
“Just a line ‘cause you’re on my mind—
To say that I’m still here”
My belt is loose ‘cause I’m not eating
Eyes are dry, hair receding
And I don’t feel right at home when I am
And now I am not afraid to speak my truth
Because I have grown afraid of losing you
The phone calls get fewer year after year
And I swear this is the one where I don’t pick up
I’ve not much of anything to say anyway
‘Cause nothing’s changed
My roots still cling to here
I’m twenty-five and I’m still nowhere near
The person I thought I’d be by now
Now I try to change my storyline
But I can’t seem to leave behind
The prologue that I wrote myself
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6. |
Only Heaven
05:47
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Silhouetted in the light
Of the season’s new distraction
And empty as the nest you made
You lay alone and start to fade
But dreaming’s got you down
There’s no shut eye in this town
When the pictures in their frames all start to play
And you can’t tell the real from the fake
Then just fall awake
A dozen miles down the road
Might as well be half a million
Where holy as the day you wed
You kneel beside a hollow bed
But heaven’s far at best
There’s no seventh day of rest
When the idols on your walls all seem to sway
And you lay with a shame that you can’t shake
Then just fall awake
And now we live our lives from date to fate
‘Cause you can drive for hours any way
And still not leave the state
Because it’s landlocked
Long-lost and left behind
With no promise left to break
So just fall awake
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The Sunset Doctrine San Antonio, Texas
The Sunset Doctrine is the solo project of Sean Lazaga from San Antonio, Texas.
Weaving intricate
melodies with earnest lyrics, Lazaga draws inspiration from the intrapersonal—wandering between intimate acoustics and layered loops in a nostalgic stream of consciousness awash in natural light.
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